this is officially my last xanga entry, ever. its old for me. It was fun while it lasted though.

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Currently Listening All Points Bulletin By Dispatch "The General" see related

This weekend was fun and rather refreshing, today was just the opposite. So it goes.

~"Dont Push" by Sublime~

Stolen from an African land,
and chased out with a knife.
With a face like Bob Marley,
and a mouth like a motor bike
Oh well the bars are always open,
and the time is always right.
And if God's good word goes unspoken,
the music goes all night

And it goes...
If i was Bob Marley I said could you be loved
If I was half pint I'd ball lord up above
If I was Mike Tyson I'd look for a fight
If I was a Boomtown Rat I would be stayin up all night
IF I was the king Ad-Rock i would get stupid dumb
If rhymes were valiums I'd be comfortably numb

If I had a shotgun, know what I'd do,
I'd point it straight up at the sky,
and shoot heaven on down for you.
Because the bars are always open,
and the time is always right.
And if God's good word goes unspoken,
the music goes all night.
And it goes:

I want a lover, I can't find the time.
I want a reason, I can't find the rhyme.
I want to start some static, but I can't afford,
to hit the ground like I fell off my skateboard, hey.
Now a days as clear as you please,
get strapped with protection or strapped with disease.
Laughter, it's free, any time just, call me.
438-4836 'cuz your down with Sublime you get
funky fresh lyrics, you get nuff lyrics.
Stolen from an african land,
I was chased out of the bar.
And Ice is my best friend tonite
so don't push me too far.

I gonna run come down with the new lyrics,
get hit, get hip, don't slip you knuckle heads.
Racism is scism on a serious tip.
You don't believe me I go and bust your lip. Hey.
I hear the mountain, it hard to climb.
Rougher the rhythm, then it must be Sublime.
Listen Bud Gaugh yea he's right on time. Come listen Eric Wilson drop the funky bassline.
Base........Mmmmm.........Come in Bud.
Lord have his grilled cheese.

This the kinda rhythm make you wanna explode.
Not like doin' coke and shooting, not like taking a load.
Because I'm one stylee, stand rough and rugged.
I keep my body strong, clean and ....
People wanna come up and they want tell me smokin crack cocaine better than sensi

Currently Watching Dark Days By Marc Singer see related

I think we all need to sleep out on the street for a week to make us more grateful for life itself. I know I would be.

On a completely unrelated note, its fucking cold outside. Not much new happening at all, except for learning to drive. Also, Timothy Leary is my new hero. Such a cool guy, we share a birthday/sign as well. Too bad hes dead, otherwise I would kiss his feet.

~"Loser" by Beck~

In the time of chimpanzees I was a monkey
Butane in my veins and I’m out to cut the junkie
With the plastic eyeballs, spray-paint the vegetables
Dog food stalls with the beefcake pantyhose
Kill the headlights and put it in neutral
Stock car flamin’ with a loser and the cruise control
Baby’s in reno with the vitamin D
Got a couple of couches, sleep on the love-seat
Someone came in sayin’ I’m insane to complain
About a shotgun wedding and a stain on my shirt
Don’t believe everything that you breathe
You get a parking violation and a maggot on your sleeve
So shave your face with some mace in the dark
Savin’ all your food stamps and burnin’ down the trailer park

Yo. cut it.

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me?

double barrel buckshot.
Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me?

Forces of evil on a bozo nightmare
Ban all the music with a phony gas chamber
’cuz one’s got a weasel and the other’s got a flag
One’s on the pole, shove the other in a bag
With the rerun shows and the cocaine nose-job
The daytime crap of the folksinger slob
He hung himself with a guitar string
A slab of turkey-neck and it’s hangin’ from a pigeon wing
You can’t write if you can’t relate
Trade the cash for the beef for the body for the hate
And my time is a piece of wax fallin’ on a termite
who's chokin’ on the splinters

Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me?
get crazy with the cheese whiz.
Soy un perdedor
I’m a loser baby, so why don’t you kill me?

Currently Reading Down and Out in Paris and London By George Orwell see related

I had an epiphany today. Sad that it took something like this to make me realize I shouldnt be happy with the life im living. Church was fun, but afterwards we went to see "The Crucible" at CV high school. Needless to say, i chain smoked-alot. Normally, it doesnt affect me, but this time i think it was too much for my body.

Cigarettes are poisen, fucking poisen. After inhaling so deeply there was such a euphoria, i just wanted to do it more and more. About half a minute later i was so nausious i couldnt walk. I ended up throwing up most of what i had eaten today. Never again. Never. Just the sight of cigarettes makes me literally sick now.

Whist lying face down on the ground outside the CV high school, I got incredebly depressed. The last time i was that sad was probably the beginning of this summer. I cant really describe how that feels. Sort of like you have no real friends and you dont even want to fucking care anymore.

Regardless of how i felt, i realized i need to step up and live more fulfillingly. I'm sick of being lazy, chemically dependent, and sensitive. No more of that shit. No more. I have to discover myself before i can commit to anything. How am i going to become a proffessor of anything if i keep acting as irresponsible as i do?

I think this is a whole new beginning for me.

-EDIT-

I GOT MY PERMIT THURSDAY. FIRST TRY, HELL YEAH.

"brain death! mind death! school damage! straight As?"

As big brother comes closer to reality...

This thing about the administration looking at xangas? So some one was cheating on vocab, yeah, its  "wrong" i guess, i would agree its punishable if i didnt want to sound hypocritical. Hell, its not like anyone actually does the vocab. Anyway, whether or not it is plagerism or cheating or not, that has no bearing on what the real issue is here.

I'm not going to pull an ACLU (though they have some great links to NORML and other drug legaliztion campaigns!) and go so far as to say it was an "invasion of privacy". No, it wasnt. Not at all. Some sicko from the Hempfield administration or some stuck up parent has every legal right (that doesnt change the fact that its morally WRONG and just low-brow, more on that later) to look at anything they want to on the net they damn well please. Fuck 'em, but the real argument you can hold under the law (and i bet my garbage-man can tell you this) is that it is EQUALLY LEGAL to say anything you want on the internet.

Ammendment one of the constitution applies to cyberspace as much as it does to every other form of communication. Have you looked at the Flat-Earth Society's web-page? Yes, thats right, the earth is flat. How much porn do people download on a daily basis? If i wanted to, i could easily set up a web site and say that Donald Rumsfeld is actually an  alien that eats babies. Of course no-one would really care (eg. flat-earth society, c'mon, even the Vatican admitted the earth was round 11 years ago), but there are some practical examples.

I can give you online step-by-step instructions on how to cook up and shoot heroin. Nobody can legally stop me. This is the beauty (or not) of freedom of information on the internet. Now go rob a bank! See?

Now that we know this it seems strange that someone can be punished for saying something he or she is saying while exercising their god-given right to speak. Anything goes at Hempfield though. Even stranger, is that she got an academic punishment and a reprimand by the administration, while the deed in question was OUTSIDE OF SCHOOL. I clearly remember my elementary school principal saying that he had no authority at all outside of the school. His example was that if some kid wanted to beat the shit out of me, but not on school grounds, that was my own problem and he couldnt help.

Fucking hypocrits. They have no right at all to do this, if whoever saw it first wanted something done, they could have called her parents and she would be grounded. Maybe. That isnt the point.  The point is, administreative and legal action could not be taken...

Currently Listening Fresh Fruit for Rotting Vegetables By Dead Kennedys "When Ya Get Drafted" see related